Uh, blah.

Worked last week, was nice. Got a nice small cheque out of it. I need to find a stable job though, something I'd like to do. Hmph.

So I've been telling more people about my plans for school next year, which means I will have to follow through with it! I'm just scared, that it wont work out and I'll fuck up again. I've already taken 3 other courses and never got past the 1st semester. Just worried that I'll end up a complete fuck up and I wont end up ever doing anything with my life - its a big worry of mine, so much so that I worry myself to tears over it. Sad right? So I do hope that I'll have a rockin support system to keep me moving forward with everything. I also need to keep myself moving forward, its hard when you dont have the motavition to do it yourself. Gotta find it somewhere I suppose. Gah.

So yeah

I didnt get a phone call, which means I didnt get the job. So I'm gunna apply elsewhere, at other place. See wheres hiring and apply at those places. I didnt really really want that job, so I'll apply come Tuesday, since I have to be at work for 8am Tuesday-Friday. Got a phone call from a place where I worked last year and they need me to come fill in. I told them I'd do it, means a few dollars in my pocket anyways! Oh, hopefully my mom gets boxes. I wanna start packing up everything in my closet. Yeah, moving sometime. Idk when though. Eh, thats it.

waiting

Uuuh, yeah. its tomorrow WHOOPS! hahaha. So tomorrow I get to freak out ALL over again. This shall be fun.